Faith 4 Triumph

Well! here it is Sunday evening. My son is cooking this evening, what a blessing. It’s so great to have family around laughing and joking. I miss those days when we used to gather around mother’s table and laugh. Dad used to call us a bunch of laughing cats. So, I am feeling the love. Dinner is now over, what a wonderful job son. I love you son, even though I give you a hard time every now and then. It’s all with love ok.

I will  continue to praise family today. I have lots of love coming from both sides of my family, the married side and the born side. With great nephew and nieces. Hats off to the parents. As parents we have to instill the values of God in our children. Lets try to give them a bible for a gift or some spiritual book. In this day and time our children needs lots of guidance, what better place then the bible. That’s where the truth comes from. We have to remember our children are not ours, they belong to God so lets teach them His word.

Let’s teach them love of God first then self, family, friends and neighbors. The Lord said love thy neighbor as thy self.

Today is Monday. Oh, what a beautiful day it is. Lots of laughter along with many, many blessings. Just relaxing doing this blog. I am sorry for taking so long to up date. Well here I am. I will try not to take as long again. Not that I don’t have lots to talk about, it’s finding the time to put it on the computer. I write it in my ipod and it takes a while to post it. Please be patience ok.

After dinner the evening is so quiet. I wonder where are the children. It would be nice to see and hear the laughter of children playing outside. Not that there are not any kids around,we are surrounded with little ones. Crazy T.V take all their time. Parents please let your children get out and socialize with other children so that can gain some people skills.

To all who is wondering how my back is doing. I am healing very well. It’s been six month since my back surgery. I can now sleep on my back at times and the pain is not as bad.The Lord is always easing my pain. I take it all as Gods blessings. I continue to put on the shield and armor that gets me through each day. With my hand in His, I take each step along the way with Him. Teach our young ones to put on the armor of the Lord for protection. We must walk, talk and pray to Him for guidance. Young people think they have the up to date answer now our words are old fashion so they don’t listen to us as parents. Maybe the book of true words (Bible) will give them the answers they’re looking for to guide them on their own.

Before I give the scripture for today. I have a inside joke to share. The sister that reads this know what and who I am writing about. Hold on a minute I think I hear the door bell. Oh, no  it’s the T.V. Senior moment. 🙂

Here is the scripture (Deuteronomy 32:46b-47b) Command your children to obey carefully all the words of this law. They are not just idle words for you-they are your life.

Love you all.

Nice day here today. Got up this morning had a wonderful walk in the neighborhood. The doctor want me to walk as much as possible. He said it’s good to keep moving.The weather has cooled off some. Last night I did not sleep well. Lots of thoughts going through my mind. The best thing is when I get like that, God is always at the center of my thoughts. Laying there with my mind running wild, for the first time in a long while I can honestly say I felt no pain for about four hours. I usually have to take some pain medicine for leg pain at night. I told my husband this morning how wonderful it felt. Another good thing knowing my husband got a good night sleep from the sound of his snoring. 🙂

Yesterday, we had a large rain and thunder storm.  I love the sound of rain beating on the roof of the house, it makes me want to cuddle up and read. Thank God the storm did not affect us much. Some people had damages and lost electrical power for a while. Lets keep those people that we don’t even know in prayer.

My week for chemotherapy begins on Thursday again. Just imaging the drugs hanging from the pole. No place for fear here because I have God in my corner always. Oh, how I love Jesus. He will never let us down.

In my first blog I spoke of family members who has or had cancer. Me, my brothers and sisters lost our father and second oldest brother to cancer.. Things has changed a lot since then, when it comes to detecting and treating cancer. There are so much new research coming out all the time, so people are getting better treatment. Lets back up and put the Lord in front of all of this. He makes it all possible. (Praise the Lord.)

I am walking around the house to get my afternoon exercises. It feels good to move sometimes. Where I used to speed walk around the house now I take little old ladies steps. 🙂 Still while moving around I am at this moment  praising the Lord. I am feeling no pain at this moment. What a blessing. Therefore I am not surprised at all. I know why.

It’s almost time  for dinner so after that I will post this blog. I guess it will be an early night. Tomorrow , up early to get blood work done. They need this before treatment on Thursday.

The scripture for today is (Deuteronomy 6:5) Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. (Please don’t forget to keep reading your bibles.)

The week has been very positive, I am doing well, getting lots of rest so that I can be ready for the next treatment. Today a beautiful Saturday afternoon. I just finished a healthy lunch. Now I am having a soothing cup of green tea. My husband make the most wonderful cup of tea. If I had known that, I would have let him  make the tea long before this. 🙂

I would have posted this last night but my other half like to listen to gospel music while reading the news papers at night. While he is doing his thing, it is time for my bible reading and prayer before bed time. I am always so thankful to the Lord for every bit of life he gives us. When I say us I mean family and even people I don’t know, they need prayer also.

I started writing this on the evening that the Housewives of New Jersey comes on. I might try to stay up to watch but my eyes are a little tired right now. There are so many reality shows on television now. Have any of you out there ever watched that show or the Atlanta Housewives? They’re two crazy shows, with lots of crazy women. I get a good laugh at them. I don’t know which one is worst.

This past week was a week without treatment. Next week treatment starts again for two weeks. I am not looking forward to it at all but it’s something that needs to be done. I can get to go out for a while next week, that’s when the nurses say it’s somewhat safe.

Every night before I go to bed I like to read a special chapter from the book of Psalm. The scripture is (Psalm 103 : 1-22) Its to much for me to write but it’s not a long chapter. Very good reading. It calms me down before I lay my head down for the night. Give it a try maybe you will make it yours. I love reading the books of Psalm. It also teaches you to pray, when we have those times words just don’t come out for us. That’s when I turn to Psalm for help. What a wonderful find. Gods words are so powerful and meaningful. Every time I read the bible, I come away feeling at ease and very calm. The words of God speaks for itself.

Before I close, the question was asked once, where did I get the knack for writing from? 🙂 It was a childhood secret. I used to love poem, I still do. After I got married, had our son, I did it to relax while the he was sleeping. As he got older, I put a pen and paper in his hand and then we started. When our son got older he took it up as a hobby, but now he stole my fame and fortune. :). I guess I’ll let him  own this one right? The things we allow our children get away with. He is getting paid from my hobby. Who would have thought. Maybe there are other writers in the family that we don’t know about. What do you think family? 🙂 Again,  Love you all (family)

Well, I started my blog on Thursday morning while reclining in the chemotherapy chair with three bags of chemical running through my veins. Things are going good. Talking with ladies that have difference cancers. Believe it or not they have a story to tell. Some are handling it differently than others. On the first day, everyone gave bits of advice that were so helpful. It was about ten of us today. I was hoping to be finished at about noon but I have  to wait for more test results. So, I keep telling myself to be patient so that the nurses can do their jobs. Everyone is so professional and nice here, they’re a great bunch of nurses. Lots of laughter and fun.

I was very proud of myself this morning, when a lady came in not knowing what to expect on her first visit for treatment. She started crying, I think she was afraid of the unknown. She missed her life the way it used to before cancer. I  told her to put the fears in the Lords hands so that he can help her carry this burden. She cannot do it alone, without Him. She want to have a big party with lots of her friends. She also invited us along which was very good of her.

Another lady just came in. She is teaching the nurses to speak french.  I am trying to eavesdrop. 🙂 That is what makes things easy. So many different subjects going on, which keeps ones mind off the chemotherapy. So far the chemotherapy is going well. (I am so hungry.) I pray I will be able to tolerate a good meal.

So, lets get back to the treatment. Listening to the ladies from last week and today. I will raise my hands in honor of the Lord. He feels our struggles. He is right in the room holding our hand. Thank You Dear Lord.

Now I am listening to BeBe Winans (Grace.) The song is about Gods grace. We can do nothing without Gods Grace.

Just finished treatment, the lady I was talking to is sleeping now. She was having a hard day. I pray she gets through this ok. I will keep her in my prayers. We have to put our strength in the Lord. He will bring us through this.  We should not worry, although being human we have our doubts.

It’s been two days since treatment. We just finished eating dinner, a friend from the church cooked. It was very good. I am still a little tired, but no complaints. The nurse said by the next couple of treatments I might see some lost of hair but that is not a concern of mine. Now don’t get me wrong. I like my hair just like most women but right now I am not going to worry about it. I will not sit in judgment against those who fear losing their hair.

Let’s change the subject from hair. 🙂 Let’s take it somewhere else. I really miss going to church Sunday. The Doctors want me to stay away, as much as possible, from crowds or groups of people because of my immune system. I will heed their words. God helps those  who help themselves. I just finished talking to one of my nieces, she checking in to see how I am doing after the chemotherapy. It was nice of her.

Well I better close down and rest my mind. The scripture for today is  (Psalm 119:03) How sweet are your words to my taste, sweeter than honey to my mouth!

Today is Tuesday , all is well. My appetite is coming back very well since my first Chemotherapy. I ate two pieces of chocolate for the first time in awhile. It’s a beautiful day here ,the heat has gone down a bit. The weekend was good both of  us, had a good rest. My husband does most of the cooking and extra work around here. I thank God for giving me such a wonderful and loving man who is a believer in  the All  Mighty God. I try to help but there’s only  somethings I can do. We have help once a month coming to  clean .I think the hard tasks are the day to day little things. I am thankful for what we have and not sweat the small things. My husband don’t mind doing the extras ,so he says.  He went grocery shopping alone today, we usually do those things together. After the treatment, I pray things will get back to normal so I can help more around the house.

I love to bake and cook special foods. I have so much rhubarb in my garden. There are so many deserts I can make with them.

I got a little pissed off at something today but immediately took  it to prayer because it is out of my control. I asked the Lord to calm my mind , soul and spirit. What a wonderful friend to have in Jesus. I can always take my thoughts and problems to him. I pray that He will guide those I love in whatever decisions and choices they make. I have learned we cannot change people .We can only try to steer them in the right direction. So, let’s continue to pray for family members and their choices they make in life. God gave us free will. It’s up to us to pick the right path to travel. We can take the rough and narrow or the easy path paved with gold. I will take the rough and narrow and let God guide me.

God thank  you for  you Son, who  died on the cross and shed His precious blood  for us. Thank you Lord for your precious and unconditional love. I thank you Dear Lord for each and everyday of breath you give me. I thank you Lord for love ones and family for kindness, compassion. I  praise you Dear Lord for your Holiness and grace. You are the King of all Kings and Lord of Lords. I am so thankful for you being in my life. Thank you Dear Lord for calming my spirit when I get upset . You are Mighty Lord and Worthy to be praised.

My husband just went outside to feed the little birdies. They were waiting for him .They are so cute sitting there watching him fill their feeder.

I read this in my  devotional book this morning.

God is on the look out for men and women ,who means business with Him, who remember Him in all His ways, and He always meets such people in blessing and power (Vance Havner)

The scripture for today is (Deuteronomy. 4-9a-B) Only be careful, and watch yourselves closely so that you do not forget the things your eyes have seen or let them slip from your heart as long as you live. I LOVE YOU JESUS . (Amen)

Today is the first day after my first round of Chemotherapy. It went very well, give all the thanks to the Lord Almighty.

I have so much support from family members. I was told to be still and listen so the Lord can do His work. I went into the chemotherapy knowing not much about the reactions because everyone takes it differently. I thought I was going to be nauseous but they gave me something to help with that.

I will repeat it again: after God, family members are the best a girl could ask for. I have received very good and uplifting comments all giving thanks to the Lord. I also have a good Affirmation prayer to post maybe the next post ok. I  am just finishing for the evening. Going to read my bible and Affirmation prayer. So, to all who reads this I am doing great all because of the Lord.

The scripture for tonight is (2 Samuel 22:2 ) The Lord is my rock, in fortress and my deliverer. also ( Joshua 1:5 ) As I was with Moses, so I will be with you : I will never leave nor forsake you. May God bless all that reads and believe His words. (Amen)

This was sent to me , therefore I read it often:

Healing Prayer

In the stillness of Your presence, God , I feel Your healing life flowing through me now, bringing peace to my mind and energy to my body.

Enfolded in Your powerful healing love, God , I experience health and wholeness in mind, body , and emotions.

Thank You , God , for Your healing life that surges throughout every cell of my entire being, strengthening me and restoring me to wholeness.

To You , God , I release any concern about my health. I trust Your love and Your life-giving presence to renew me.

Dear God, I am open and receptive to Your healing power. Your light and life energize every cell of my being, and grateful. (Amen)

Today is Wednesday. Things are quiet and still very hot all over the country. Things could be worse. Thank the good Lord for each minute of the day and that our families are healthy and strong. We all have great faith and our beliefs are unbreakable. From little girls and boys and mom and dad made sure we fear the power of the Lord because His power was and always is greater than anything made by man.

I remember Grandfather Beals as a Deacon always spoke of God’s power. At times he really had me afraid. I would go to bed at night thinking the Lord was going to do bad things. Now I understand the difference. He is kind, loving, not easily angered, and always forgiving and patient.

I understand that the Old Testament teaches about how God struck down the Israelites because they did not obey God’s command. When Jesus died on the cross, he put in a new covenant of good versus evil, where good always wins. So in my times of struggle I know that whatever the Lord has in store for me, good always wins.

At the church we attend, our Pastor is a teaching preacher. He gets right to the core of the scripture he reads. I would love to take our son to one of his services. I went to get my eyebrows waxed, the young lady said that during chemo therapy they are not allowed to wax them, so if I lose my hair I will have no need for waxing. It does not bother me either way. It’s no shame to lose your hair anymore. Let’s be proud and give God the glory for life. What’s up with the hair anyways. 🙂 Girls, let’s not worry about how we look, God loves us no matter what. Isn’t that all that matters, God’s love?

It’s 10:04 on Wednesday night and we’re at our son’s house, lining my mind up with the Lord for tomorrow’s chemotherapy. And I can just picture him sitting there holding my hand.

Today’s scripture (Psalms 115:18) But we will bless the Lord from this time forth and forever more. Praise the Lord.

It’s Sunday evening the 4th of  July. Attended church this morning , as usual a wonderful time praising the Lord. Had a great Sunday nap but I always wake up hungry. 🙂 It’s time for dinner. We are having ribs and veggies. I love me some ribs. The neighborhood is still very quiet but some people are cooking out. Lots of cars are on the street I live but cannot see any people. They must be inside because of the heat which is about 96 degrees. We are trying to stay up to watch the fire works but it’s a big try.

I know all of you Canadians had your Canada Day last week, with lots of fun stuff. Here it’s about the same only we have a temperature about 96 degrees. So, I will celebrate both holidays, and eat for two countries.

This week I have to get lots of rest and stay calm and focus on my God and the Chemotherapy.  I still feel so good about things, whatever will be will be.

Tonight will  be a early one because I feel like I could sleep now. 🙂 I have not even eaten yet. So, love you all. I will be back tomorrow or  Tuesday. Don’t forget to keep all in prayer. Scripture for today is (Deuteronomy 32 :39) See now that I myself am He! There is no god beside me. I put to death and I bring to life, I have wounded and I will heal, and no one can deliver out of my hand.

I  was suppose to be finished after the scripture but while watching the 4th celebrations on television I heard this Asian American play a classical tune on the piano. I went into metatiation, and this is what came to mind.

Dear Father, as I walk  this long and dark road. I know you will walk it with me. When I kneel to pray I know you are kneeling with me. When I am feeling tired, I know you will give me strength. When  I am feeling sad your words of kindness picks me up. Dear Lord when I am feeling pain and cannot sleep you always rocks me in your arms. In my times of  laughter ,you are there whispering soft words in my ears. So, I thank you Dear Lord for your strong hands and words of wisdoms and love. I LOVE YOU JESUS.

I am going to make this one short. Just relaxing today. It’s another beautiful day here. Sitting here watching the Food Network with the Neelys, a black couple cooking, and they’re so funny to watch. Today they have the main couple from The House of Payne on cooking with them. They’re funny also. Four crazy people. 🙂

I have my iPod plugged in my ear listening to music by Marvin Sapp. You know I have to get my praise on everyday.

It’s a quiet one here, even the neighborhood is quiet. Maybe most of the people are gone for the long weekend. Let’s pray for safe travel for all who are traveling.

Well, I was not going to write much but here I am going on and on. So, today’s scripture is (Deuteronomy 31:6) Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you: he will never leave your or forsake you.

My Prayer

When I bow my head I pray,

When I open my mouth to speak or sing I pray,

Lord, when I raise my hands I pray,

With each step I take Lord I pray,

To you Lord, I pray always

Please, Lord help me to sing and speak your praises in prayer,

Yes, Lord I pray to you,

For all that I am, I pray and give thanks , Oh Lord

I thank you for being my rock my shield and for giving me strength,

I pray these words to you ,Dear Lord.

( Amen )

Here it’s Wednesday evening, I am at our son’s place. Tomorrow I have to be at the hospital  early in the morning for radiation treatment and  have the port placed for the chemotherapy treatment. I knew this was going to take place but it went into full gear Tuesday after seeing the Doctor.

My faith and belief are still at the top  of the chart. Nothing will waver me because we all know who is in my corner. The Lord almighty is my greatest cheerleader (Amen.)

This morning I spent time resting and thanking God for every minute he gives me. I spoke to two of my sisters and they give me so much love and encouragement, I felt it all the way across the border. During all of the chemotherapy, we will be resting at our son’s place if I get to tired to travel.

At the same time, I feel very at peace with everything. I already have two wigs just in case I lose my hair or I might just go like Mrs Clean his wife of Mr Clean. By the way did Mr Clean have a wife? 🙂 and was she bald? 🙂

The next four or five months it will be over in no time. The good Lord will be traveling this road all the way with me. I know he is never far away. He will give back to me what the devil stole from me (Amen) because we know, who always win the battle, the one and only God Everlasting.

I will try to post this soon because I know you all want to know what’s going on. Like I said it’s going to be a long day tomorrow so be in prayer for me.

My husband and son is out in the other room eating blueberry grunt. I know all you old timers from N.S. know what I mean. I told my son the old timers called it grunt but the new comers calls it duff but the sophisticated ones call it cobbler. 🙂 I don’t know what the folks outside of North Preston calls it. We have a language all of our own and I am so proud of it. 🙂 I am old school, love me some back home. ( know what I am saying? 🙂 )

I better get some sleep but first I better check on those guys and that dessert.

Here we are it’s Friday. The day is beautiful. I spoke to those crazy sisters from across the border. (So much love) I feel very tired today, after yesterday so today is about lots of rest and sleep. I start my first chemotherapy on Thursday. Continue to pray for me and all the other ladies going through this. We might not know them but God knows who they are. I will let all of you know how it goes. God already know how it’s going to go (right) he will be there by my side.

The scripture for today. (Deuteronomy 2:7) The Lord your God has blessed you in all the work of your hands. He has watched over you journey…..and have not lacked anything.